It's easy to find praise of solitude. Here are a few quotations, on this quiet, overcast Sunday morning (I love "overcast"; nothing like living in
I live in that solitude which is painful in youth, but delicious
in the years of maturity ~ Albert Einstein, 1879 - 1955
Loneliness is the poverty of self; solitude is the richness of
self. ~ May Sarton, 1912
- 1995
The best thinking has been done in solitude. The worst has been done in turmoil. ~ Thomas Alva Edison, 1847 - 1931
Solitude is such a potential thing. We hear voices in solitude, we never hear in the hurry and turmoil of life; we receive counsels and comforts we get under no other condition. ~ Amelia Barr, 1831 - 1919
Great men are like eagles, and build their nest on some lofty
solitude. ~ Arthur
Schopenhauer, 1788 - 1860
If you can't stand solitude, perhaps others find you boring as well. ~ Mark Twain, 1835 – 1910
I agree with all of the above. Being intense and easily overstimulated, I need a lot of “down time” to process experience. What I love is a quiet life, with plenty of time for the soul – or, to use a more secular language, time to process experiences.
And yet the fine line between the richness of solitude and the
pain of loneliness sometimes gets blurred. For me America has always been the synonym
of loneliness. Was it Mother Teresa who called America the loneliest country in
the world, one where millions of people feel alone, abandoned and unwanted?
Where popular hits can have titles such as, "Smile, though your heart is
breaking" (the first song I heard after arriving in the U.S. ), or
"What about all the broken-hearted."
All around me, I see a hunger for community, for groups that can
function as one’s true family, a family of choice based on common interests,
taking delight in the same things. I would love to find more kindred minds, to
feel a part of a caring community. I find it interesting that both Swedenborg
and Jung (in his account of his near-death-experience) imagine the afterlife in
terms of being with those of like mind – those “in the same soul group.”
Speaking of the afterlife: in the modern age, it’s easiest to
imagine heaven and hell as states of mind. Pope John Paul II astonished me by
declaring that hell is not a place, but a state of mind. Oddly (and
significantly), he didn’t quite dare say the same about heaven, preferring to
say that heaven is the person of God and the state of union with God – the
latter possible already in earthly life.
Poets have had this understanding for centuries. Milton ’s Satan says, “Why,
I myself am Hell, nor am I out of it.”
Here is a typical "state of mind" understanding of both
heaven and hell:
I sent my Soul through the Invisible,
Some letter of the Afterlife to spell;
And by and by my Soul
returned to me,
And answered,” I Myself
am Heaven and Hell”
–
~ Edward Fitzgerald, Rubaiyat
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And here is Emily Dickinson’s claim:
Some keep the Sabbath going to the Church —
I keep it staying at Home —
With a Bobolink for a Chorister —
And an Orchard, for a Dome —
Some keep the Sabbath in Surplice —
I just wear my Wings —
And instead of tolling theBell ,
for Church,
Our little Sexton — sings.
God preaches, a noted Clergyman —
And the sermon is never long,
So instead of getting to Heaven, at last —
I'm going all along.
And an Orchard, for a Dome —
Some keep the Sabbath in Surplice —
I just wear my Wings —
And instead of tolling the
Our little Sexton — sings.
God preaches, a noted Clergyman —
And the sermon is never long,
So instead of getting to Heaven, at last —
I'm going all along.
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On the other hand, those influenced by Jung and Rumi manage to
cling to the idea of a disembodied “spirit world,” or possibly many lifetimes.
Here is one of Bly’s minor poems, with apologies for posting such a prosy piece
– I think what it says is interesting, and the hope that we taste heaven many
times, and not just in this life, but at some "larger party," is
difficult to dismiss completely. At this point I do dismiss it, but I am open
to wonderful surprises.
I find the lines I highlighted in bold to be the most delightful part of the poem.
TASTING HEAVEN
Some people say that every poem should have
God in it somewhere. But
of course Wallace Stevens
Wasn't one of those. We
live, he said, "in a world
Without heaven to follow." Shall we agree
That we taste heaven only once, when we see
Her at fifteen walking among falling leaves?
It's possible. And
yet as Stevens lay dying
He invited the priest in. There,
I've said it.
The priest is not an argument, only an instance.
But our gusty emotions say to me that we have
Tasted heaven many times: these delicacies
Are left over from some larger party.
~ Robert Bly
Perhaps, perhaps -- though I doubt it. Isn't our earthly life a large-enough party? I heard a New-Age woman remark about her
New-Age friends, “Most people I know can’t wait to disincarnate.” By contrast,
most people I know, including myself, see this life as both
heaven and hell. When Jack Gilbert imagines his own death in one of his best
poems, “The End of Paradise” (in Refusing Heaven), I instantly
understand the title. Even though he has known a lot of suffering, Jack Gilbert
does not see himself as being dragged from one hell to another. For all the
sorrows, this life contains enough beauty to be called paradise. Then, in
Gilbert's vision, the paradise comes to an end – perhaps making even the
smallest joys incredibly precious, to be enjoyed while there still is a chance.
And then
there is another vision of heaven, or call it the spirit world – and it’s not
one filled with bliss. Una sends us this poem:
Haunting
The
cemetery sits on a hill. Crosses
stamped on
the sky, round shouldered
clouds
shuddering in the chill Santa
Ana wind.
I lean
against the harsh pillow of your headstone
wondering
if you know your son is back on drugs.
You’re
beating your wings against the cage
of heaven,
though I doubt you can die another
death. I
pray you are in happy ignorance
of what’s
happening here on earth. Hell
would be
knowing, or again living through
something
you cannot live through, or die from.
I rise.
The willow combs a few dead leaves
from my
hair, and ducks on the pond,
quacking
softly, swim in tight circles.
~ Una Hynum
© 2010
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Oriana:
This poem reminds me of O’Keefe’s painting of the black
cross in New Mexico .
The cross has a huge symbolic meaning. As Jung says, “He who speaks with
archetypes speaks with a thousand mouths.”
I asked Una for this poem
back when we just had “Easter Sunday Morning” by Ammons. I mention this only in
order to point out a certain similarity between the two poems. Una accomplishes
a similar effect as Ammons does, but in a much more compressed way.
Here the speaker is in
greater distress than Ammons is in his poem. She wonders if the dead know what
happens here in earth, in which case her dead love would know that his son back
on drugs. Realizing that such knowledge would be hell to him, she prays that he
stay “in happy ignorance.”
But look at what happens
next. Just as the poem by Ammons, nature brings some solace, though that solace
remains ambiguous. The willows combs dead leaves out of the woman’s hair, and
the ducks quack softly. However, we come up against the fact of death again
because it’s dead leaves, and the
ducks swim in tight circles – so we
are left with some tension. The tension is less so with the leaves, since the
act of combing is so tender, and it might be that the dead leaves fall off, and
the speaker’s gaze is now on live creatures, the ducks with their soft
quacking, an endearing sound.
Yet the tension of “tight”
circles can’t quite be disposed of. Nevertheless, the lyricism of nature works
its magic. It’s almost as if the dead beloved combed those leaves out of the
speaker’s hair, and spoke softly, “There, there,” through the ducks.
There are great lines
here. I like the way “crosses” is the last word of the first line, already
“stamped on the sky” by being highlighted. “Round-shouldered clouds,” “I lean
against the harsh pillow of your headstone,” “You’re beating your wings against
the cage / of heaven” – that last phrase is absolutely marvelous.
Of course everyone will
love the image of the willow combing out dead leaves out of the woman’s hair. “Willow ” is one of the
most beautiful words in English. It reminded me of the first stanza of
Pasternak’s “English Lessons”
When it was Desdemona’s
time to sing,
and so little life was
left to her,
she wept, not over love,
her star,
but over willow, willow,
willow.
Why is Una’s work so
lyrical? She has the closeness to nature that marks lyrical poets, and she
knows how to use imagery to convey her meaning without having to explain it.
And her poems are charged with feeling – with tears and love. These days, there
seems to be a fear of feeling, and plenty of aloof, heartless poems. Not from
Una.
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