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Mt. Whitney near the summit
STILL LIFE CAFÉ
Near an exit to Death Valley,
next to a rusty two-pump gas station,
there used to stand a shack
with a faded sign:
STILL LIFE CAFÉ
BREAKFAST LUNCH DINNER
BEER WINE
Only clumps of sage brush,
a Joshua tree like a broken candelabra.
We passed it every summer
on the way to Whitney Portal.
I could imagine only too well
the still life inside:
a beer-sticky formica counter,
the sticky plastic tablecloth
smeared with a sticky rag.
A fan frantically whirrs,
moving the hot air around;
one sluggish fly, a few locals
sticky with beer and sweat
under a half-gone neon
of Miller’s Highlife,
and non-stop country-western
songs all whining into one —
“God may forgive you, but I won’t.”
The last time, in dead August heat,
we were going to Whitney Portal
to celebrate my mother’s
eighty-seventh birthday.
She could walk only slowly;
it’d been ten years since she hiked
to the top of Mt. Whitney.
Yet she insisted on hiking on her birthday,
fragile and lovely like a dying orchid.
She went with us part of the steep trail.
Around, sheer walls of granite,
pale beige or rosy with streaks of greenish gray,
or burning gold in the setting sun.
And the cascades, shivers of white
against the shiny skirt of rock;
the huge coins of eroded stone
above the deep green of fir and pine.
Near the streams, the tender monkey flowers,
wild rose and Indian paintbrush,
blue borage and tall purple candles
of lupine, the regal wolf flower.
She had to stop and rest many times.
Told me again about the thunderstorm
at the summit that could have killed everyone.
Exclaimed more than once,
“The high mountains. Just smell the air!
The high mountains make me feel alive.”
*
A New Age friend told me of her near-death
trip out of the body, floating among the planets
and the stars. “There were colored lights
and music, and galaxies like swirling neon.”
God was like the sun, she said,
only brighter. “He told me, ‘Go
back!’ I felt angry, so very angry.
Who’d want to go back?”
I asked her, “Are there trees there?”
She glanced at me as though rudely
interrupted in her ecstasy. “Oh no.
Nothing like trees.” I thought,
if there are no trees, I’m not interested.
And if my mother had had a choice:
an afterlife floating around
the galaxies, admiring the colored lights,
hearing the music of the spheres,
or waiting for a long time,
centuries perhaps — in August,
at the Still Life Café,
temperature one-hundred-and-five,
hoping for a campsite at Whitney Portal,
I had no doubt what she’d choose —
knowing the granite that rises there,
immense and nearly vertical,
a cascade of light.
~ Oriana © 2016
(another view from Mt Whitney trail near the summit; both photos were taken by my mother)
How strange it feels to be looking at a poem in which my mother is still alive and the Still Life Cafe is in its original forlorn location rather than in Lone Pine, gentrified and meaningless.
My mother would indeed choose to wait for a campsite at Whitney Portal because she knew what was important, and it wasn’t an imaginary afterlife amid the swirling galaxies. The galaxies are of course fascinating to ponder, but to us humans at this stage, only one planet is important. It’s interesting that there is a book by Nancy Abrams, A God That Could Be Real, which argues that the only god that could be of interest to us humans is not cosmic (so much for “cosmic consciousness” as the ultimate in spiritual chic), but planetary.
We don’t want heaven, we want life, this life, just more beautiful and more loving.
(Abrams considers god real as an “emergent phenomenon.” Here is one explanation of emergence: “Cells have individual life, but when billions are gathered together in a certain form, what emerges is greater than the sum of the parts: it is (or can be) a human being. Humans themselves have individual life, but when millions focus their efforts in certain ways, other realities emerge. One might be called “the stock market,” which exists and has definite rules and characteristics. Another is “the media," and so on.” ~ from Amazon
Bird migration is an example of an emergent phenomenon. In terms of religion, god didn’t create us; we created god as part of our collective brain function. According to Abrams, that man-created god could be just as real as bird migration.
This is my first shameless digression in a long time.)
Back to what is important: to make wise use of what little time remains. “That’s not important,” my mother would say countless times during her last years. She wanted “what wakefulness remains” reserved for the essence. That included the daily walks where she could look at trees, dogs, children, squirrels. A bird hopping on the pavement was important. The sale at Sears was not important. Neither was meeting the tax deadline, even if the IRS seemed to differ.

My mother on her 75th birthday.
What, then, IS important? The answer depends on the person and on the stage of life. Right now, amid medical difficulties, holding on to the bliss of slow reading and slow writing has become primary. “Harvesting” my poems and bringing them to perfection is important, building on my strengths rather than striking out in new directions as I did in my twenties and early thirties.
What else is important? Beauty and tenderness, but much has been written about those. So let me repeat: slow reading and slow writing. That’s how I become more my central self. Though this is not yet old age (but will it ever be? doesn’t it start at only at ninety?), I identify with what May Sarton (Journal of a Solitude) says

HITLER’S ASCENT: MYTH AND MEDIOCRITY
~ “When Adolf Hitler turned 30, in 1919, his life was more than half over, yet he had made not the slightest mark on the world. He had no close friends and was probably still a virgin. As a young man, he had dreamed of being a painter or an architect, but he was rejected twice from Vienna’s Academy of Fine Arts. He had never held a job; during his years in the Austrian capital before World War I, he survived by peddling his paintings and postcards, and was sometimes homeless. When war broke out in 1914, he entered the German Army as a private, and when the war ended four years later, he was still a private. He was never promoted, the regimental adjutant explained, because he “lacked leadership qualities.”
Yet within a few years, large crowds of Nazi supporters would be hailing this anonymous failure as their Führer. At 43, Hitler became the chancellor of Germany, and by 52 he could claim to be the most powerful man in the history of Europe, with an empire that spanned the continent. In the sheer unlikely speed of his rise — and then of his catastrophic fall — Hitler was a phenomenon with few precedents in world history.
Hitler cries out for explanation, and perhaps always will, because even when we know all the facts, his story remains incredible, unacceptable. How could so insignificant a man have become so potent a force for evil? How could the world have allowed it to happen? And always, the unspoken fear: Could it happen again?
Historian and journalist Volker Ullrich sees his subject as a consummate political tactician, and still more important, as a gifted actor, able to show each of his audiences — from the rowdies at mass meetings in beer halls to the elites in the salons of rich industrialists — the leader it wanted to see.
Like most biographers of Hitler, Ullrich passes quickly over his subject’s early years, which are little documented, in part because one of his last orders before his suicide in 1945 was for all his private papers to be burned. The story of Hitler’s public life doesn’t really begin until 1919, when he emerged in Munich as a far-right agitator, one of many who capitalized on the chaos in Germany created by the world war and a short-lived leftist revolution in Bavaria.
By 1923, his National Socialist German Workers’ Party had grown bold enough to try to overthrow the provincial government, in what became known as the Beer Hall Putsch. The coup failed, however, and after a short stint in jail, Hitler decided it would be easier to destroy the deeply unpopular Weimar Republic by legal means. He maneuvered ruthlessly toward this goal, aided by widespread despair over hyperinflation and then the Great Depression, until his triumphant elevation to the chancellorship. Notably, the Nazis never won a majority of the vote in any free election. Hitler came to power because other, more respectable politicians thought they would be able to control him.
Once in office, Hitler quickly proved them wrong. With dizzying speed, he banned and imprisoned political opponents, had his party rivals murdered, overrode the constitution and made himself the center of a cult of personality to rival Stalin’s. These moves did not dent Hitler’s popularity. On the contrary, after years of internecine ideological warfare, the German people went wild with enthusiasm for a man who claimed to be above politics. The fact that he hated Jews with a demented passion only added to his popularity in a deeply anti-Semitic society.
Hitler was a man who evacuated his inner self, as much as possible, in order to become a vessel for history and what he believed to be the people’s will. On a podium, he could mesmerize huge crowds with his rhetoric about Germany’s destiny. But everything we learn from Ullrich about Hitler’s personal life — what he ate for breakfast (cookies and chocolate), how he bored his guests with endless monologues, even his clandestine love affair with Eva Braun — is commonplace. He was himself conscious, on some level, that he was a thoroughly undistinguished person. When in the company of intellectuals or aristocrats, what Ullrich calls his “inferiority complex” was inflamed, and he grew fidgety and irritable.

Hitler’s mediocrity is all the more noticeable in this book because Ullrich strives not to mythologize his subject, knowing how many myths are already in circulation. There is a tendency, in stories about Hitler, to try to locate the magic key that explains him. Thus people sometimes say that he hated Jews because a Jewish doctor failed to save his mother from cancer, or that he was sexually neurotic because he was missing part of his genitals. Ullrich summarily dismisses both of these legends, noting that Hitler actually had a good relationship with his mother’s doctor, and that records of his medical examinations reveal no physical abnormality.
More important, Ullrich is consistently skeptical of the myths Hitler tried to create about himself. Much of the evidence we possess about the early life comes from the stories he told, and from the tendentious propaganda of “Mein Kampf.” These were designed to further Hitler’s image as a man of destiny, which meant that they were highly melodramatic. For instance, in 1939, while visiting the Bayreuth Festival, Hitler remarked that it was seeing a performance of Wagner’s opera “Rienzi” as a teenager that first gave him a sense of his heroic destiny: “That was the hour everything started.” Ullrich chalks this story up to “Hitler’s need for exaggerated self-importance.”
Yet he doesn’t deny that Wagnerian opera had a profound influence on the young Hitler’s view of the world. In fact, the strange thing about Hitler is not that he imagined himself as the leading figure in a historic drama — many people have such grandiose fantasies — but that life ended up vindicating him. It might have taken a world war, the Great Depression and other calamities to prepare the way, but in the end Germany decided to see Hitler just as he saw himself; the country matched his psychosis with its own. What is truly frightening, and monitory, in Ullrich’s book is not that a Hitler could exist, but that so many people seemed to be secretly waiting for him.” ~
http://www.nytimes.com/2016/10/16/books/review/hitler-ascent-volker-ullrich.html?hpw&rref=books&action=click&pgtype=Homepage&module=well-region®ion=bottom-well&WT.nav=bottom-well&_r=0

Oriana: In lieu of a commentary, let me simply quote the last sentence: “What is truly frightening is not that a Hitler could exist, but that so many people seemed to be secretly waiting for him.”
MILOSZ ON CHRISTIANITY, COMMUNISM, AND THE IDEA OF HISTORICAL NECESSITY
Part of the charisma of Communism was the idea of its own historical necessity. Its victory was assured and only a matter of time; the progress of history was the writing on the wall. Milosz derives the concept of historical necessity from Christianity, but I think it started with ancient Judaism (and Milosz too actually starts with the conquest of Canaan). The world had a beginning, and the world will have an end, followed by the Last Judgment. History is the unfolding of god’s justice.
Tiger (Tygrys) was the nickname of Tadeusz Kroński, who in a 1949 letter to Milosz wrote this notorious passage: “Just because the majority [of the Polish population] is against us, we are to give up a great historical opportunity? . . . With the butts of Soviet rifles we’ll teach the people of this country how to think rationally, without alienation.” And thus he later became infamous as the man who wanted to use Soviet rifles to teach people how to think rationally.
However, he also said, “Anyone who crosses himself in public crucifies Christ. I also cross myself, but only when no one can see me. (Please keep this a secret. I can say it only to my closest friends.)” (But I am not aware if he ever held the view that Christ was the first Communist.)
In “Native Realm,” Milosz writes: ~ “Powerless Europe in 1948 had already been described in the Book of Joshua. The inhabitants of Canaan trembled when the Israelites arrived on the Jordan because they knew that the Lord had delivered Canaan over to the newcomers and that nothing could resist His will. At the sound of the Israelite trumpets, dismay filled the hearts of Jericho’s defenders. Now the trumpet of Communism resounded so loudly in Paris that the more discerning were convinced that to resist resist the verdict of historical Providence would be futile.
The citizens of the declining Roman Empire . . . felt weak in the face of Christian fanatics announcing the good news of the Last Judgment. Thus when Tiger spoke of “Christians,” it was understood he meant Communists. The allegory is justified insofar as the idea of inevitable progress or of a hidden force behind the scenes -- implacable toward all who disobeyed the Teacher’s commands -- took its origins from Christianity: without Christianity, after all, there would have been no Hegel or Marx.
. . . Tiger, of course, adored Hypatia, the last pagan philosopher of Alexandria, not the dirty, terrifying mob of Christians who tore her apart. And yet, he said, the future did not belong to Hypatia but to the Christians.” ~
“AMERICANIZATION” AS A COUNTERVAILING FORCE
Milosz, however, saw a countervailing force. Aside from the rise of the Soviet Empire, he’d also witnessed something that he considered equally important: the “Americanization” of Europe and, more slowly, the world. While fanatical Communism kept losing its charisma, Americanization was marching on. It’s been widely equated with “modernization.” It’s only now that we see another charismatic movement make gains against Americanization, and that is of course militant Islam. Countries such as Iran, once quite Westernized, have become theocracies. The triumphalist mood after the collapse of the Soviet union has given to a wide perception of vulnerability and decline. I haven’t heard the phrase “historical necessity” for a very long time. Let’s hope that the phantom of historical necessity will never again haunt the world.
To be sure, apocalyptic gurus still abound . . . Or simply those who are a variation on “Gott mit uns” of the German belt buckles.

Friedrich Hegel
Oriana:
Odd: Communism lasted such a short time, while the waiting for the First and Second Coming, that ultimate historical necessity, continues. The chronic failure of the prophecy of the end of the world does not seem to inspire much skepticism about its veracity. It’s easily explained away: so, there’s been a delay . . . As for all the New Testament statements about how imminent this end was supposed to be, surely we can find a metaphorical meaning: the world will end for each of us, won’t it?
Wait, but what about the graves opening and so on? That was surely understood in literal terms? Some apologists like Karen Armstrong have put forth a bizarre notion that during the Middle Ages, for instance, people understood religion as pure allegory, and only we moderns have become literal — that’s why we find religious dogma bizarre. I say that mostly only we moderns have the sophistication to engage in metaphorical interpretation. Centuries ago, it took an incredibly exceptional mind to be radical enough to see mere metaphor. Even a great mind like St. Augustine took the story of Adam and Eve absolutely literally.
Communism versus Christianity is an interesting contrast between the fizzle or reality versus the power of fiction. For a moment I was tempted to conclude that the fall of communism presages the fall of Christianity, but obviously if something is fiction, then nothing needs to be delivered, and the promise of the inevitable — the historical necessity of trumpets, skeletons stepping out and putting on flesh, the rest — can continue for another thousand years (though some don’t expect humanity to survive more than a hundred more years)

Last Judgment, stained glass, Cluny
THE SPIRIT OF DADA
~ “During World War I, Zurich, the largest city in neutral Switzerland, was a refuge for artists, writers, intellectuals, pacifists, and dodgers of military service from various countries. A handful of these decided in 1916 to create a new kind of evening entertainment. They called it Cabaret Voltaire and established it at Spiegelgasse 1, not far from the room that was occupied by an occasional visitor to the cabaret, Vladimir Ilyich Lenin.
The initiator of the group appears to have been Hugo Ball. He was, like most Dadaists, a writer but had also worked in the theater and performed in cabarets. After having to leave Germany as a pacifist, he settled with Emmy Hennings in Zurich where, pale, tall, gaunt, and near starving, he was regarded as a dangerous foreigner. At the Voltaire, he declaimed his groundbreaking phonetic poem “Karawane” (Caravan)—written in nonsensical sounds—to the bewilderment of the public. After a few intense months of Dada activity he left the group, turned to a gnostic Catholicism, and died in the Swiss countryside, regarded as a kind of saint. His diary Die Flucht aus der Zeit (The Flight from Time) remains one of the principal accounts of Dadaism.
Among the artists of stature who emerged from Dada, Hans Arp was perhaps the steadiest and most consistent. A friend of Max Ernst, Kurt Schwitters, and Wassily Kandinsky, and a gifted poet, he was devoid of malice and envy, and had a superior sense of humor. His later spouse Sophie Taeuber, a notable artist herself, taught at the Applied Arts School in Zurich. She created marionettes and was a member of Rudolf von Laban’s dancing school, which had introduced a new expressive style of dance. During her Dada appearances as a dancer she wore a mask to disguise her identity.
In Tristan Tzara, calm and self-assured yet with a thunderous voice, Dadaism had its most passionate advocate and most tireless propagandist. André Breton called him an impostor avid for publicity but reconciled with him in 1929. Tzara’s poems influenced Allen Ginsberg and William Burroughs, and a few of them were translated by Samuel Beckett. Like Arp, he subsequently became a Surrealist.
Emmy Hennings, before living with Hugo Ball, had been an alluring drifter. Diseuse, actress, barmaid, and model, she became a femme fatale for more than a few German poets. She was a gifted cabaret performer who sang “Hab keinen Charakter, hab nur Hunger” (Devoid of Character, I’m Just Hungry). An important presence at the Dada events, “her couplets,” according to Huelsenbeck, “saved our lives.”
Soon, there was also Walter Serner, a cynic and anarchist who, as a writer, would become notorious for his thrillers and scandalous novels. Tristan Tzara called him “a megalomaniac outsider.” This was a time when dandies wore monocles. Serner wore one, and so did some of his Dadaist colleagues. He rebelled against society by being a high-class confidence man, producing a juridical thesis of which 80 percent later turned out to be plagiarized. Writing under the name of his painter friend Christian Schad, he reviewed a collection of his own stories. He also enjoyed feeding the press false information. His essay “Letzte Lockerung” (Ultimate Loosening) is for some a Dada classic.
From the near improvisation of the first events at the Cabaret Voltaire, one of the most influential avant-garde movements of the century emerged. The word “Dada” was introduced only a couple of months later. There are several explanations for it: the babble of a child, the word for a toy, the double “yes” in Slavic languages and Romanian, and Dada lily milk soap and hair tonic, which was first produced in 1912.
Dada was a joint achievement of the group. Its soirées were multimedia events: they combined words and literature, singing, music (with Ball at the piano), dance, art, farce, and a fair amount of noise. “Repelled by the butcheries of the world war 1914 we surrendered to the arts,” said Hans Arp. “We looked for an elemental art that would free the people from the insanity of the times, and for a new order that might establish a balance between heaven and hell.” “What we celebrated was a buffonade and a requiem mass at the same time.
In Paris, Tzara created a stir with his Dada manifesto of 1918 as well as with his electrifying presence. There, Erik Satie, another major composer, was a Dada sympathizer, and the literary ground for Dada had been prepared by the poet Guillaume Apollinaire. In 1920, Breton and a number of writers and artists who later became Surrealists joined Tzara, but in 1922 the Dadaists officially fell out with one another—according to Theo van Doesburg, over the question of whether a locomotive was more modern than a bowler hat.
The profound difference between Dada and Surrealism was that the Surrealists had a program and a dogmatic leader (Breton) while Dada was freewheeling and steeped in ambiguity. It was everything as well as nothing. Nevertheless, each of its branches had a different character. Berlin Dada, with Huelsenbeck, Raoul Hausmann, and Johannes Baader—an eccentric who intruded into the National Assembly to distribute Dada leaflets—was the most aggressive and political. The virtuoso draftsman George Grosz, another member of the Berlin group, despised bourgeois culture as well as modern art.
Picabia, The Lovers, After the Rain, 1925
Hausmann, a Dadaist with philosophical ambitions, and his companion Hannah Höch became champions of photomontage and collage, techniques central to Dadaism. The surpassing master of collage was, however, Kurt Schwitters, an artist of genius with a very different temperament from most Dadaists; he was apolitical and totally devoted to “Merz,” his own brand of Dada. Extremely tall, he used his booming voice to declaim, shout, hiss, and scream his mighty poem “Ursonate,” to this day the most striking specimen of phonetic poetry. His recitations were said to be so impressive that audiences were seized first by laughter, then by awe. Schwitters was also part of the Amsterdam Dada scene that was connected to Theo van Doesburg and the constructivist movement De Stijl.
In Cologne, Max Ernst produced some of the most exquisite Dada drawings and photomontages of the early 1920s. Together with the son of a banker who called himself Johannes Baargeld (cash), Ernst shocked the public with a Dada exhibition that was promptly closed by the police. A Dadaist sentence by Ernst reads, “Thanks to an ancient, closely guarded monastic secret, even the aged can learn to play the piano with no trouble at all.”
According to Schwitters:
Dada subsumes all big tensions of our time under the biggest common denominator: nonsense…. Dada is the moral gravity of our time while the public collapses with laughter. As do the Dadaists.
Traditionalists see Dadaists as silly people. To a degree, they are right. Silliness was liberating from the constraints of reason. Silliness has the potential to be funny, to provoke laughter, and make people realize that laughter is liberating. Raoul Hausmann mentioned the sanctity of nonsense and “the jubilation of orphic absurdity.” To Dadaists, Charlie Chaplin was the greatest artist in the world.
There seems to me more than a little resemblance between the world a hundred years ago and much of what we observe today. This is no all-out war, but there is a sense of a deep crisis and an overbearing feeling of menace, of being faced with enormous threats. Karl Kraus, the Viennese moralist, satirist, and critic, wrote, “As order has failed, let chaos be welcome.” The buzz that Dada has recently generated in Zurich was best illustrated last February, when the Kunsthaus invited the people of Zurich to attend a fancy dress ball coinciding with the Dadaglobe exposition. No fewer than nine hundred masked neo-Dadaists turned up.” ~
http://www.nybooks.com/articles/2016/10/27/growing-charm-of-dada/?utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=NYR%20Dada%20advertising%20Trump&utm_content=NYR%20Dada%20advertising%20Trump+CID_5eef89dc03c12b8d0c13d3e331f1e6b6&utm_source=Newsletter
Oriana:
Paintings regarded as Dada seems like typical modern art to me. In that sense, in the visual arts Dada is still going strong. In poetry . . . well, language poetry can be seen as the direct descendant, but there aren't that many admirers. Surrealism likewise proved to be more vital in the visual arts than in poetry.

Kurt Schwitters, The Psychiatrist, 1919 ("This has a bit of Steam Punk about it" ~ Gwyn Henry)
LENIN AND DADA
I
love to imagine Lenin — who did live in Zurich on Spiegelgasse (Mirror Alley) — attending a Dada performance. By contrast, Putin is totally
inartistic.
But, seriously, Lenin was not a secret Dadaist (that theory, along with the notion that the Dadaists found Lenin’s idea “the greatest Dada,” is strictly tongue in cheek). The avant-garde Russian art of the first years after the revolution had more of a futurist feel. The main movement was called “Constructivism.” And it is true that Lenin at first did support avant-garde art, championed by his Commissar for Education, Anatoly Lunacharsky. Lenin’s great dream was to make Russia a leading modern country, like the United States, a country he openly admired.
Still, the only part of Dada that Lenin would have appreciated was its desire to destroy the old order — and certain elements of the industrialism that pop up in the imagery. But Lenin was basically too “bourgeois” to approve of the bohemian and anarchic spirit of Dada. I realize that he would have hated to be called a bourgeois, a term he used to denounce almost anything he disliked.)

Klee, The Little Jester
Power and violence are always based on psychopathy and fantasy. Violence denies the basics on which authentic human interaction must be based: empathy, trust, and compassion. ~ Ralf Klinger
ON BEING A LITERARY ATHEIST — YAHWEH VERSUS YODA
Though I could easily call myself a gnostic atheist (one who knows that god doesn’t exist), I prefer the label “literary atheist.” This is a person who understands the power of fiction. Any atheist can say that god is fictional, but a literary atheist knows that fictional characters are a part of our psyche and can have an amazing power to influence our behavior.
When a character like Superman is invented, he enters the collective psyche of humanity. “Star Wars” is an even better and more positive example, with Yoda as a spiritual guide and the master of “The Force.” Or even Harry Potter. Having supernatural powers is a big part of the appeal of those characters that become cultural icons.
A literary atheist regards a god, including any Abrahamic god (Yahweh, Allah, the Christian Trinity) as a fictional character. Perhaps “mythological” would be a more precise label, but “fictional” covers more ground. Just because a character is fictional doesn’t mean that he or she doesn’t “exist.” A fictional character can have a vivid neural existence, having become an indelible part of our psyche, along with the main narratives.
“Stories that never happened can have infinitely more power than stories that did.” Of course. You can have all kinds of impossible things take place to convey moral lessons and create strong emotions.
The story of the woman taken in adultery is regarded by many as illustrating the very essence of Christianity. It’s almost a foundational story. Yet it doesn’t appear in the early Greek manuscripts. Scholars have established that it’s a later medieval addition. Even those who know the story is made-up can still treasure it as a story, and still use the expression “to cast the first stone.”
Ultimately, so what if the story is made up? It’s all made up. It’s possible that Jesus never even existed — or if he did, we can never excavate the “historical Jesus” from the layers and layers of legend. A powerful story is not based on “it really happened.” Factual accuracy is beside the point. A story enters our psyche and exerts its influence. Even something clearly unbelievable, e.g. the resurrection, can contain an element that the psyche may find valuable — the symbolism of rolling back the stone, or the very idea that we can survive something devastating.
A literary atheist is a gnostic atheist, but with a subtle difference: she recognizes that a fictional character can be very powerful part of our lives, often more powerful than an actual person. The human brain doesn’t strictly separate reality from imagination. It’s not just young children who confuse “imaginary” and “real” characters and events; adults show the same tendency, as demonstrated by the phenomenon of false memory. And “false memory” is the rule, not the exception. In a way, all characters (including ourselves and our friends) are “imaginary.”
So in a way it’s fine that Yahweh is a fictional character. The distressing part is that he’s not a well-written one. This is not surprising, given that the bible was written and edited over a long time by many men. He’s not the creation of a single literary genius; he’s a collective creation.
And then there is the question of selective reading and shifting interpretation over the centuries that followed. Given that, it’s remarkable how, for all the efforts to soften him, he remains an obnoxious character, definitely “not a swell dude,” as someone recently put it. But a character doesn’t have to be likable to be powerful — literature is full of villains and good guys, as well as more complex villains who now and then have a gracious moment.
But let’s face it, Yoda is wiser and more endearing by far.

“THROUGH THE EYE OF A NEEDLE” — CHRISTIANITY AND THE PROBLEM OF WEALTH
~ “One of the central embarrassments of Christianity arises from one of the most central errors of its founding figurehead. Jesus Christ was convinced that the next world — a radically different world from the observable reality of Roman Judea in which he found himself — was, as he continuously put it, “at hand.”
He was the prophet of this change in the exact same way John the Baptist had been the prophet of his own coming — that is, as a roadside herald, trumpet in hand, declaring the coming of something extremely imminent. Jesus repeatedly tells his listeners that he is a divisive figure, an enemy of complacency — he repeatedly tells people they must choose sides, this dusty live-a-day world all around them, or the next world, which is just about to dawn and change everything.
The problem with this particular mistake (the world didn’t change, the kingdom of Heaven didn’t arrive, the Romans kept nailing troublemakers to scaffolding) is that it elicits some of Jesus’ most straightforward comments – none more so than Matthew 19:21, when the Master is confronted by a rich young man who is righteous and God-abiding (when he’s given a list of commandments, he comments that he’s been following them his whole life – in other words, crucially, he’s not a sinner). The young man asks what he must do to gain eternal life, and Jesus’ answer hits him right between the eyes: “If thou wilt be perfect, go and sell that thou hast, and give to the poor, and thou shalt have treasure in heaven: and come and follow me.”
The young man refuses and goes away disappointed, and that’s when Jesus utters his famous imprecation that it’s easier for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of Heaven.
Hardly any rich Christians have wanted to do what their Savior explicitly commands them to do. The text from Matthew provides the title of Peter Brown’s dense, magnificent new book (with its gigantic sub-title), Through the Eye of a Needle: Wealth, the Fall of Rome, and the Making of Christianity in the West, 350-550 AD, and the subject – the way early Christians got around the embarrassment of not wanting to be poor – is explored in 500 pages of fascinating, engaging prose and 100 pages of close-packed and amazingly comprehensive notes. The conflict between the sacred calling of Christianity and the more mundane concerns of spes saeculi, the hope of advancement in this world, is here given an examination like it’s never had before, with money at the heart of it all.
Also at the heart of it all is that pivotal figure, St. Augustine, and readers who’ve already encountered Brown’s justly revered Augustine of Hippo will know to expect fine writing and fine insight into the figure who, more than anybody, tried to work out a theocratic framework that would allow his congregation to be wealthy if only they avoided avarice. Blatant double-talk like that would come in very handy to Christians of every subsequent century.
~ Augustine’s justification of wealth came at the right time. In a world that had been unexpectedly shaken by renewed civil war and by barbarian invasion, there was no point in denouncing the rich for the manner in which they had gained their wealth. Those whose wealth had survived the shocks of this new crisis were unlikely to feel guilty about what little of it was left to them. The radical critiques of wealth and the wealthy associated with the preachings of Ambrose and with the Pelagian De divitiis were out-of-date. Such radicalism had been the product of an age of affluence. It had played on the disquiet of the comfortable rich of the fourth-century age of gold. It had less effect on persons who now faced the prospect of losing everything.” ~
http://www.openlettersmonthly.com/book-review-through-the-eye-of-a-needle/

Reliquary of the Holy Umbilical Cord, Cluny, 1407
Oriana: One aspect of the veneration of relics and images is very striking to me: it was the old paintings and statues that some centuries later (usually during the late Middle Ages) started weeping, bleeding, or even walking about. This is fascinating because those old paintings were much less likely to be naturalistic, but were stiff and stylized. I found that true of the “miraculous icons” in Poland — mostly Byzantine in style. Those are not the beautiful Madonnas that were painted later, with Mary as a lovely young woman — but the severe, awkward images from earlier centuries.
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I checked it online, and the quote seems authentic. Religion mostly works to anoint the ruler (the “divine right of kings”) and protect the ruling class. There have been exceptions, and peasant uprisings where the poor did murder the rich — usually quickly suppressed, and strongly condemned by religious leaders (e.g. Luther thundered against the peasant uprising of 1525).
NATURE AS A CORRECTIVE TO PRIDE
~ “Of the seven deadly sins, the one with perhaps the most diverse menu of antivenins is the sin of pride. Need a quick infusion of humility? Climb to a scenic overlook in the mountain range of your choice and gaze out over the vast cashmere accordion of earthscape, the repeating pleats swelling and dipping silently into the far horizon without even deigning to disdain you. Or try the star-spangled bowl of a desert sky at night and consider that, as teeming as the proscenium above may seem to your naked gape, you are seeing only about 2,500 of the 300 billion stars in our Milky Way — and that there are maybe 100 billion other star-studded galaxies in our universe besides, beyond your unaided view.” ~ Natalie Angier
Oriana: And now astronomers think there may be almost ten times more galaxies than previously thought and have increased the estimate to trillions.
http://www.npr.org/sections/thetwo-way/2016/10/14/497965415/the-universe-has-almost-10-times-more-galaxies-than-we-thought

The better to startle you: a chicken embryo
ending on beauty
UNANSWERED PRAYERS
My childhood theory about why prayers weren’t answered was that Yahweh didn’t speak Polish. So what did it matter if we politely called him Mr. God in a language he didn’t understand. The gods who knew Polish were hiding in the woods like the partisans. I wondered how they survived the winter. Their drinking songs could sometimes be heard.
~ Oriana Ivy
Earth photographed from space
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EURYDICE REVISITS LONG BEACH
Unendurable, later, this necropolis of love.
I recognize even the raised spot
in the pavement on Fourth Avenue
where he stumbled once.
Oh city within the city, eternal city of time.
That stairway of dead echoes. A half-
figure peers into my old window,
his shadow broken on the railing.
Must I walk forever
down these stumbling streets,
read again the warped,
rusted warning signs?
Yes, says the theater marquee,
in red neon blood
announcing a silent classic,
“The Death of Orpheus” —
as if it didn’t happen
long ago, when he turned
away from his art. He said,
“Maybe the meaning of my life
will be through you — you write,”
and I reeled, a dazzled moth —
though we both preferred
to turn off the light.
~ Oriana Ivy © 2016
How strange it is to come across poems about old loves, so intense once, now essentially meaningless, almost puzzling. The greatest love of my youth was a narcissist. He once made a statement that startled me: “Perhaps the meaning of my life will be through you — you write.” To give him some credit, he also said “You have talent.” Thus he delivered the antidote to the poison of having been told, three years earlier, that I had no talent.
And later he almost ruined that memory by trying to justify his cruelty: “If I hadn’t caused you pain, this” — pointing to a poem of mine — “wouldn’t be here.” He wanted to believe that he created me as a writer.
His own art happened to be acting. He had an obvious talent for acting and took drama classes in college. But a teacher happened to make an unfortunate remark: “You are not handsome enough to be a leading man.” And that verdict was the end of this talented man’s acting ambition. If he couldn’t be a leading man and have the adulation that goes with it, then there was no point being an actor.
“Hamlet doesn’t have to be handsome,” I remarked when he told me this story. But even if he heard me, it was too late (unless for amateur theater). He preferred to mourn for his lost glory as a star.
In spite of the grandiosity, he had no secure sense of his own accomplishments. They were always only for show anyway, only a means to earn admiration. He took fencing lessons and cello lessons; when the recorder became popular, he tried that for a while. He’d go for the intellectually chic (this included food — he wouldn’t be caught dead eating iceberg lettuce; it had to be red-leaf or butter lettuce, in those pre-radicchio years); he drove a stick-shift VW, professed love for Beethoven’s Late Quartets, and played the abstruse game of Go rather than chess. But he never stayed with anything past its peak popularity.
He seemed to realize his own lack of substance. For a narcissist, he could be surprisingly self-aware. He said, more than once, “I know I am shallow” — and, in a moment of despair (he was no stranger to despair): “Deep down, I am a piece of shit.”
I realize that there is no single explanation for the various sub-traits of narcissism, of which self-loathing may be one. Did he have a terrible childhood? Yes. His father was an abusive alcoholic, and he grew up in the poverty and brutality of the “mean streets.” It was about survival, not about learning empathy or discovering your true talents and vocation.
Whatever causes the narcissistic personality disorder, it must be terrible not to have a genuine center, a seriousness about something for which you feel reverence. For me it's both beauty and the intellect, the collective genius of humanity; at a more specific level, it's still mostly poetry. That, and the ideal of kindness.
Finally, though, I agree that most of us have a need to worship something. For me that’s beauty. And that’s my center. Creativity is strongly connected to it. And yet, much as I hope that I will be able to work until almost the very end, I can also imagine no longer being able to write, and yet still having beauty at the center of my life — in a receptive way.
(A note on the title: the poem is part of my Eurydice series. In my personal “revision”, Eurydice, disappointed in Orpheus, becomes a singer herself.)

Photo: Alexey Menschikov
I AM GLAD THAT MY WORST SUFFERING HAPPENED IN MY YOUTH
It’s not that suffering made me strong — on the contrary: I think I would be stronger and healthier now if I’d received a lot of affection back then and found creative work sooner. I believe that happiness, not suffering, makes us strong — the happiness of being loved, and the happiness of doing the work we love. Emotional support makes us strong, and the fulfillment and self-forgetfulness that come with paying full attention to whatever we are doing. As Freud said, “Love and work.”
But the suffering in my youth gave me the special scale of comparison that makes almost everything minor now, while elevating a sunset, say, to miraculous abundance and enchantment. Why, the astonishing fact that I am still alive! I don't have to remind myself to count my blessings.
This morning I woke up to a tiny miracle: a flock of mourning doves wandering in the grass in my backyard, pecking at some invisible seeds. Whole five minutes of watching them and listening to their cooing! I was flooded with happiness. O tiny gods! Would I be caressing such ecstasies if not for the years of squalor and degraded love, the years of “unrequited soul” as Hafiz says it?
Perhaps I would. Perhaps even more so. But offhand it’s plausible to think that my daily appreciation of small beauties is enhanced because they feel like such a gift after the torments.
But in the main, my youth wasn't completely wasted because, among other things, it created a different definition of pain, catastrophe, defeat, degradation. And people are surprised that I don't take novocaine for minor dental procedures. That’s not even real pain! Real pain is so obliterating that you either pass out or are totally filled with the desire to die. Not to die and go to heaven, but the desire for oblivion: not to be. That is pain. Other kinds, that's “discomfort.”
As I get older, I see how fewer and fewer things fit into the category of “important.” Interesting how often I remember my mother in her last years — I knew they were her last not only because she was getting close to 90, but also because she began to say, "That's not important" about a lot of things.
human heart without muscle or fat, with only the arteries and capillaries exposed
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“YOU ARE ALREADY NAKED”
“Almost everything, all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure —these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what it is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.” ~ Steve Jobs
“Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important tool I have encountered to help make the big choices in life.” ~ Steve Jobs
Oriana:
The older I get, the less interested I become in wasting time on fussing about my clothes and the like trivia. Life is just too short for that. We are indeed “already naked.” And yet . . . the day most beautiful at sunset, just as life seems ever more beautiful as we foresee its close. What my heart desires is the fullest possible communion with that beauty.
I only wish Steve Jobs added that full acceptance of death is also likely to make us more kind toward others — again, there is simply no time for petty arguments etc. So much nonsense falls away, and ideally more empathy and kindness make itself manifest — that’s part of the so-called "mellowing with age.”

Van Gogh: Sunflowers 1887
I AM A CLOUD WATCHER
I stole this image from an ad for solar energy, and why not. I am a cloud-watcher. Years ago I thought my main identity was “immigrant,” and after that “writer,” and after that “woman.” Now that I feel wonderfully posthumous, i.e. post-poetry, I am a cloud-watcher again. Call this a second childhood, but no, it's not the same. I never had such thoughts as now. When I was a child, I thought only I was real, while others were programmed robots. No more. Now I see that the clouds are more real than I am.

YOU DON’T HAVE TO HAVE A DREAM: BE MICRO-AMBITIOUS
This is the most useful commencement address I’ve ever heard. Relax: you don’t have to have a dream. Imagine: in this culture that nags you, starting in childhood, to “think big,” to know exactly what you want to do with the rest of your life already at the age of nine, but certainly by nineteen, here comes a “success story” from the entertainment business, and he tells you it’s OK not to have a dream.
In fact, he tells you to beware of long-term goals; you’re likely setting yourself up for despair. Instead, Tim Minchin says, be passionate about short-term goals. Wow! almost my own “doctrine of tiny steps.” Instead of worrying about not having a big dream, or, later in life, about having just run out of your big dream, concentrate on the task right ahead, no matter how small. “Whatever thy hand finds to do, do it with all thy might,” as the preacher advises in the wonderfully secular Book of Ecclesiastes.
Then another task will present itself. To paraphrase Kafka, it has to; it will roll in ecstasy at your feet.
You’ll see that next task out of the proverbial corner of your eye. But if you are preoccupied with the “big dream,” trying to consciously control the course of your life, you are blinded and might miss something important.
Of course it’s proverbial that most people “don’t know what they want in life.” Let me quickly explain why it’s so hard to have a coherent “dream.” We are not a single self; the brain has many competing neural pathways. Call them multiple selves. And even those shift and evolve depending on the stage of life. So “go with the flow” is the best solution. Trust life. Trust your unconscious. But when you do engage in work, especially the sort that really calls to you at the moment, throw yourself into it. Be micro-ambitious.
Tim does urge us to remember that it’s mostly luck, and being grateful for whatever luck we’ve had — starting with the luck of existing. It’s illogical to take pride in one’s achievements or blame oneself (or others) for one’s failures — too much of it is sheer luck. The understanding of luck — of the power of circumstances — is the key to humility and non-judgment.
http://www.upworthy.com/this-is-the-most-inspiring-yet-depressing-yet-hilarious-yet-horrifying-yet-heartwarming-grad-speech?c=undefined
“Searching for meaning in life is like looking for a rhyme scheme in a cookbook” ~ Tim Minchin

NO CIRCLE OF POETS IN DANTE’S INFERNO
When Franz Wright first sent a few of his early poems to his famous father, James Wright wrote back: “So you are a poet. Welcome to hell.” Dante’s Canto III comes to mind, the inscription on the gate:
Through me the way into the suffering city,
through me the way into eternal pain . . .
Abandon hope, you who enter here.
The poets’ hell was also mentioned by Milosz. It was a part of the hell of artists: those who put the love of art ahead of human love. Milosz said that Anna Kamińska was not an eminent poet; she was too good a good human being “to learn the wiles of the craft.” Her life was rich with human joys and suffering rather than creative agony and ecstasy.
There is no circle of poets in Dante’s hell. Virgil is one of the noble pagans who dwell in Limbo. Brunetto Latino, Dante’s mentor, runs on the burning sand under a rain of fire as punishment for homosexuality, not poetry. Most unforgettable is the troubadour Bertran de Born, who holds his severed head like a lantern. But no one is in hell for the idolatrous dedication to his art rather than to god.
Agony and ecstasy, the cross and the delight: the agony of poetry’s difficulty, the capriciousness of inspiration, waiting ten years for the right ending (now and then it’s precisely what happens), the impossibility of writing good work every time. And this before we even begin to lament the wounds in the struggle for recognition, the constant rejection and humiliation. “You die not knowing” if your work was any good, as Berryman says in Merwin’s poem.
For Franz, there was also the problem of being regarded as “the wrong Wright,” the son not half the lyricist that his father was. “No magic,” I kept thinking when I read Franz’s poems. But all poets have the less personal but even more demanding mothers and fathers — the great poets whose best work set the standard.
It took me years of despair to come to see that the last words written on gate also pointed to the paradoxical way out of hell, especially the hell of trying to get published. “Abandon hope” — stop striving for instant perfection and struggling for recognition, and enjoy the peaceful pleasure of concentrating on the work itself, on the beautiful unfolding of the creative process.
This is Buddhist and Taoism wisdom, but not exclusively so. Some Western thinkers have also discovered the bliss of dropping the striving, of dropping the self-flagellation with the whip of “Achieve! achieve!” They advise dropping the dream, the great ambition, and concentrating on “micro-ambition”: the task at hand, without thinking of the results. “Don’t have a dream!” Focus totally on what’s in front of you.
What goes together with hope is its dark twin, fear. “Hope and fear — why we cannot fly.” I forget who said it (a poet, I think), but it sounds true. These are irrelevant, distracting emotions.
It’s also a matter of trust, of relinquishing conscious control. The best writing flows from the unconscious when it is ready, in its own time. Once writing ceased to be overwhelmingly important, I began to watch with pleasure how it emerges, one image leading to the next, one idea opening an infinity of ideas. That’s where the inner critic must awake and choose only the best — again, with as little struggle as possible, since choice too is part of the inspiration, and will come when it is ripe.
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In Dante’s hell I’d probably find myself in the circle of the heretics. For Dante it meant those who denied the immortality of the soul, i.e. the afterlife. Those who dared to think for themselves and concluded that consciousness dies when the body dies (which seems to be also the Old Testament view) are doomed to live in open tombs filled with flame. After Judgment Day in the Valley of Josaphat near Jerusalem, the heretics, their bodies restored, will return to lie down in their tombs — but now the stone lid of the tomb will be shut.
One might point out that the suffering would be greater if the heretics had some hope of getting out of the tomb and seeing “the sweet light” of earth. Then they’d be trying and trying, only to fail again and again. But without hope, they will not engage in useless struggle. Strange as it may sound, they’ll be at peace while being everlastingly consumed by the eternal flame.
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Jerusalem, the Valley of Josaphat, assumed to be the site of the Last Judgment. In the foreground, a cemetery (I think): a treeless, flowerless, stony place that makes old European cemeteries look so luxurious and sweet in a melancholy way — I almost want to say “cozy.” Cremation is now the way — we aren’t yet ripe for the eco-burial. Otherwise, who wouldn’t want to “rest” in a cozy cemetery?
ONLY 58% OF AMERICANS STILL BELIEVE IN HELL (so much for Pascal's Wager?)
It doesn’t surprise me that the belief in hell is waning, since there is less and less tolerance for cruelty, and besides, as soon as I arrived, I noticed that Americans don’t see themselves as sinners (a huge change after Polish Catholics, who seemed 50 years behind) deserving any kind of punishment, much less eternal. The most recent (2013) Harris poll found the belief in Satan and hell down to 58%. I expect this to slide below 50% soon.
~ “It is increasingly difficult to convince educated people that they and their friends and children deserve infinite suffering for finite failings—or that a god who acts like an Iron Age tyrant (or domestic abuser) is the model of perfect love. A group called Child Evangelism Fellowship aroused intense opposition in Portland last summer in part because outsiders to biblical Christianity were appalled that insiders would try to convert small children by threatening them with torture.
The appeal of hell as a part of the faith package appears to be in decline, even among Evangelicals. According to a 2011 survey, while 92% of Americans claimed some sort of belief in God, only 75% believed in hell. A 2013 Harris poll put belief in the devil and hell at 58 percent. As one theology professor, Mike Wittmer, put it: “In a pluralistic, post-modern world, students are having a more difficult time with (the idea of) people going to hell forever because they didn't believe the right thing.”
The decline of hell-belief may be due to the same factors that may be causing the decline in bible belief more broadly — globalization and the internet. It gets harder to imagine oneself blissfully indifferent to the eternal torture of Muslims, Buddhists, Jews, and atheists when those people have names and faces and are Facebook friends.” ~
http://www.alternet.org/belief/what-happens-christianity-when-people-stop-believing-hell?paging=off¤t_page=1#bookmark
Gian Lorenzo Bernini, Anima dannata (damned soul), 1719
It’s said that in order to capture the agony, 20-year-old Bernini held his hand over flame while watching the reflection of his face in the mirror.
Oriana:
Those who still believe in hell seem to be particularly ardent supporters of it. One man on FB said, “But without hell, who'd ever want to follow Jesus?” Sad.
Pascal lived in an era where the clash with competing religions hardly existed. Now of course it’s the Muslims who claim that all non-Muslims go to hell, and we are aware of that, and the whole game seems more and more ridiculous.
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One world at a time. ~ Henry David Thoreau, on being asked about the afterlife

SURGEONS ARE RED, PSYCHIATRISTS ARE BLUE
In surgery, anesthesiology and urology, around two-thirds of doctors who have registered a political affiliation are Republicans. In infectious disease medicine, psychiatry and pediatrics, more than two-thirds are Democrats.
It’s possible that the experience of being, say, an infectious disease physician, who treats a lot of drug addicts with hepatitis C, might make a young physician more likely to align herself with Democratic candidates who support a social safety net. But it’s also possible that the differences resulted from some initial sorting by medical students as they were choosing their fields.
Dr. Ron Ackermann, the director of the institute for public health and medicine at Northwestern University, says he remembers his experience rotating through the specialties when he was in medical school. “You’ll be on a team that’s psychiatry, and a month later you’re on general surgery, and the culture is extraordinarily different,” he said. “It’s just sort of a feeling of whether you’re comfortable or not. At the end, most students have a strong feeling of where they want to gravitate.”
One explanation could be money. Doctors tend to earn very high salaries compared with average Americans, but the highest-paid doctors earn many times as much as those in the lower-paying specialties. The fields with higher average salaries tended to contain more doctors who were Republican, while the comparatively lower-paying fields were more popular among Democrats. That matches with national data, which show that, for people with a given level of education, richer ones are more likely to lean Republican (possibly because of a concern over the liberal policy goal of taxing the wealthiest at a higher rate).
The sorting may also reflect the changing demographics of medicine. As more women have become doctors in recent years, they have tended to cluster in certain specialties more than others. The data showed that female physicians were more likely to be Democrats than their male peers, mirroring another trend in the larger American population. So as women enter fields like pediatrics, obstetrics/gynecology and psychiatry, they may be making those fields more liberal.
Over all, the partisanship of doctors looks very different from a generation ago, when most physicians identified as Republicans. The influx of women may help explain that change, too. The researchers Adam Bonica, Howard Rosenthal and David Rothman compared political donations by doctors in 1991 with those in 2011 and 2012. The study found that doctors had become substantially more likely to give to Democrats.
New doctors can’t explain all of the change, though. Even older doctors in the new data look close to evenly split between the parties. It’s likely that many older doctors have switched parties over the year. That’s true broadly for well-educated professionals in the United States, who have become increasingly Democratic in recent years.
The shift reflects how the practice of medicine has been changing, too. Doctors used to essentially be small-business owners. As such, they may have been more attracted to Republican aims of low taxes and limited regulation. These days, more and more doctors are employees of large companies or hospitals.
http://www.nytimes.com/2016/10/07/upshot/your-surgeon-is-probably-a-republican-your-psychiatrist-probably-a-democrat.html?action=click&pgtype=Homepage®ion=CColumn&module=MostEmailed&version=Full&src=me&WT.nav=MostEmailed&_r=0

WANT TO FEEL BETTER FAST? MAKE A GOOD-ENOUGH DECISION
~ “Ever make a decision and then your brain finally feels at rest? That's no random occurrence.
Brain science shows that making decisions reduces worry and anxiety — as well as helping you solve problems.
Upward Spiral (US): Making decisions includes creating intentions and setting goals — all three are part of the same neural circuitry and engage the prefrontal cortex in a positive way, reducing worry and anxiety. Making decisions also helps overcome striatum activity, which usually pulls you toward negative impulses and routines. Finally, making decisions changes your perception of the world — finding solutions to your problems and calming the limbic system.
But deciding can be hard. I agree. So what kind of decisions should you make? Neuroscience has an answer.
Make a "good enough" decision. Don't sweat making the absolute 100% best decision. We all know being a perfectionist can be stressful. And brain studies back this up.
Trying to be perfect overwhelms your brain with emotions and makes you feel out of control.
US: Trying for the best, instead of good enough, brings too much emotional ventromedial prefrontal activity into the decision-making process. In contrast, recognizing that good enough is good enough activates more dorsolateral prefrontal areas, which helps you feel more in control.
As Swarthmore professor Barry Schwartz said in my interview with him: “Good enough is almost always good enough.”
So when you make a decision, your brain feels you have control. And, as I’ve talked about before, a feeling of control reduces stress. But here’s what’s really fascinating: Deciding also boosts pleasure.
US: Actively choosing caused changes in attention circuits and in how the participants felt about the action, and it increased rewarding dopamine activity.
Want proof? No problem. Let's talk about cocaine.
You give two rats injections of cocaine. Rat A had to pull a lever first. Rat B didn't have to do anything. Any difference? Yup: Rat A gets a bigger boost of dopamine.
US: So they both got the same injections of cocaine at the same time, but rat A had to actively press the lever, and rat B didn’t have to do anything. And you guessed it — rat A released more dopamine in its nucleus accumbens.
So what's the lesson here? Next time you buy cocaine … whoops, wrong lesson. Point is, when you make a decision on a goal and then achieve it, you feel better than when good stuff just happens by chance.
And this answers the eternal mystery of why dragging your butt to the gym can be so hard.
If you go because you feel you have to or you should, well, it's not really a voluntary decision. Your brain doesn't get the pleasure boost. It just feels stress. And that's no way to build a good exercise habit.
US: Interestingly, if they are forced to exercise, they don't get the same benefits, because without choice, the exercise itself is a source of stress.
So make more decisions. Neuroscience researcher Alex Korb sums it up nicely:
We don’t just choose the things we like; we also like the things we choose.” ~
http://www.businessinsider.com/a-neuroscience-researcher-reveals-4-rituals-that-will-make-you-a-happier-person-2015-9
Oriana:
Choice is also a burden, a source of stress, but only if you agonize over it. The beauty of this article is pointing out that we don’t have to agonize — that we can make a “good-enough decision.” Once we realize that the decision doesn’t have to be perfect, we can decide quickly — and then we’ll quickly feel better.

ending on beauty
Whose one white note was feast enough
for all the throats of dusk.
~ Cecilia Woloch
Photo: David Whyte

MARINA
Quis hic locus, quae regio, quae mundi plaga?
What seas what shores what grey rocks and what islands
What water lapping the bow
And scent of pine and the woodthrush singing through the fog
What images return
O my daughter.
Those who sharpen the tooth of the dog, meaning
Death
Those who glitter with the glory of the hummingbird, meaning
Death
Those who sit in the sty of contentment, meaning
Death
Those who suffer the ecstasy of the animals, meaning
Death
Are become insubstantial, reduced by a wind,
A breath of pine, and the woodsong fog
By this grace dissolved in place
What is this face, less clear and clearer
The pulse in the arm, less strong and stronger —
Given or lent? more distant than stars and nearer than the eye
Whispers and small laughter between leaves and hurrying feet
Under sleep, where all the waters meet.
Bowsprit cracked with ice and paint cracked with heat.
I made this, I have forgotten
And remember.
The rigging weak and the canvas rotten
Between one June and another September.
Made this unknowing, half conscious, unknown, my own.
The garboard strake leaks, the seams need caulking.
This form, this face, this life
Living to live in a world of time beyond me; let me
Resign my life for this life, my speech for that unspoken,
The awakened, lips parted, the hope, the new ships.
What seas what shores what granite islands towards my timbers
And woodthrush calling through the fog
My daughter.
~ T.S. Eliot

Photo: David Whyte
The epigraph means: “What place is this, what region, what area of the world?” ~ a quotation from Seneca's Hercules Furens (The Mad Hercules), Act 5, line 1138 , where Hercules is so disoriented he doesn’t know where he is, and asks, “Quis hic locus, quae regio, quae mundi plaga?”
“Marina” was inspired by on a minor play written in part by Shakespeare, “Pericles, Prince of Tyre.” (It is like Eliot to scour obscure sources). Marina is the only daughter of Pericles. She was born onboard a ship — hence her name, meaning “of the sea.”
~ “Pericles at the end of the play is reunited with his daughter who presumably died soon after birth. Pericles, distraught, travels the ancient world. At the end of the play the ruler of Mytilene sails to the ship and comes onboard. He suggests bringing to Pericles an extraordinary woman, a maid, who may by her presence and singing save Pericles from his despair. Of course that woman is Marina, who, as Pericles discovers in a very touching discovery scene, is not dead but is reborn to him. The whole story is wrapped in the symbology of the sea and water, and a mystical notion of rebirth. In Eliot’s poem there is also the power of memory as a restorative agent.” ~ Richard Mennen (slightly modified by Oriana)
Marina singing before Pericles, Thomas Stothard, 1825
There is a similarity between a passage in Marina and one from Burnt Norton.
From Marina:
Whispers and small laughter between leaves and hurrying feet
Under sleep, where all the waters meet.
From Burnt Norton, the first of The Four Quartets:
Go, said the bird, for the leaves were full of children,
Hidden excitedly, containing laughter.
Go, go, go, said the bird: human kind
Cannot bear very much reality.
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So much for the easy part. What can we make of the part that is different and yet so Eliotesque, i.e. the second stanza condemning the worldly? Well, the stanza condemns the worldly: those who are power-hungry and violent, those who are vain, the self-satisfied, and those given to the pleasures of the flesh and thus “suffer the ecstasy of the animals” — a thought-provoking phrase.
Of course we are all against violence and vanity, but I am not so sure about quiet contentment and appreciating physical pleasure — unless it’s in excess, i.e. overeating or otherwise obsessing about food (as for sex, it seems to me that erotic deprivation is a more serious problem, breeding all manner of evil).
But let me not argue with Eliot. Fine, let us condemn foodies as shallow, and those who prepare for debates by styling their hairpieces. They are insubstantial next to the lasting beauty of the ocean and fog. Next to beauty, period. This poem strikes most readers as completely obscure, and yet it’s possible to love it without being able to say what on earth it’s trying to say. Why? Because it’s beautiful.
I could babble on the possible meaning of “under sleep, where all waters meet.” But I don’t wish to make my reader a receptacle for babbling, literary, mystical, or psychological (all these categories fuse, especially during sleep). Though Eliot might not approve, I want the reader to feel sheer delight of the imagery and the verbal music:
What seas what shores what grey rocks and what islands
What water lapping the bow
And scent of pine and the woodthrush singing through the fog
What images return
O my daughter.
~ it’s interesting to see that the lack of punctuation heightens the sense of rapture. Ah, the rhythm? Are you levitating yet? If not, read it again and again. With poems like this, re-reading for the ecstasy of the esthetic mind is the only way.
Oh yes, besides beauty there is also a sense of hope. The ship, like an aging body, is falling apart, but the speaker celebrates a new life opening to him. The daughter, a symbol of the eternal feminine, has been restored.
There is a wonderfully subtle invocation of childhood, a hint of it, really:
Whispers and small laughter between leaves and hurrying feet
Under sleep, where all the waters meet.
Note the alliteration and consonance of laughter, leaves, and sleep and all. The “l” sound is a semi-vowel, and it lends beauty to words. English is not as rich in vowels and thus not as musical as, say, Italian or Russian; but it has a lot of words containing the “l” sound — willow or allow — and those are quite beautiful.
There is also a repetition of s, w, and t, intensifying the music.
And not various other repetitions:
Bowsprit cracked with ice and paint cracked with heat.
I made this, I have forgotten
And remember.
The rigging weak and the canvas rotten
These images of decay are followed by images of hope:
The awakened, lips parted, the hope, the new ships.
and the last stanza echoes the beginning:
What seas what shores what granite islands towards my timbers
And woodthrush calling through the fog
My daughter.
The first stanza referred to the return of memories; the last stanza has the woodthrush calling to a new life opening before Pericles.
“Daughter” is the last word of the poem. Besides being the eternal feminine, a daughter is a child, symbol of a new life; in addition, she bears the potential of herself becoming a mother, producing more new life. But we know that Eliot is not concerned with biological fertility. The new life could be understood as his conversion to Anglicanism. Marina is a figure of grace, a female savior that may make us think of Dante’s Beatrice, or indeed of the Virgin Mary (one of Mary’s epithets was Stella Maris, the Star of the Sea).
But to see it only as a record of Eliot’s conversion — though correct in terms of biography — would be to narrow down the poem in an insufferable way. A new vision, a new purpose, a fresh beginning, a surge of creativity — this can happen at any age. Gabriel Garcia Marquez wrote a novel about a ninety-year-old who falls in love for the first time.
We also need to consider the possibility that the “new life” is actually death and whatever may await beyond it. It’s possible to defend the thesis that all poems are in some way about poetry, and all poems are in some way about mortality. Pericles is nearing the end of his “life’s journey.” His ship is in poor shape; it won’t serve much longer.
But note that there is a mention of “new ships.” Pericles is apparently not thinking of ceasing to travel and settling down with Marina — unlike King Lear, whose last deluded fantasies are about being happy in prison with Cordelia. No, Pericles will have new ships — new means of travel, probably to be understood strictly as a metaphor.
And religious conversion is often called “dying to your former life.”
But that’s just it: the dying is metaphorical. It’s dying to the appreciation of the things treasured by the worldly, such as power, wealth, and fame. It’s dying to sensual pleasures and awakening to “higher” pursuits, such as obedience to a religion. And the worldly pursuits are themselves a kind of death:
Those who sharpen the tooth of the dog, meaning
Death
Those who glitter with the glory of the hummingbird, meaning
Death
Those who sit in the sty of contentment, meaning
Death
Those who suffer the ecstasy of the animals, meaning
Death
Renouncing the worldly pursuits, then, can be seen as a “new life.”
However we understand the “new life,” that’s the unavoidable interpretation of the poem: a new life, a rebirth symbolized by the restored daughter — and perhaps also by the newly perceived beauty of nature. To me, that beauty is primary, as expressed through the beauty of poetic language. The poem is a kind of magical incantation — note the use of repetition, a musical device.
I took a seminar on Elliot, and remember remarking about Marina, “This is such a beautiful poem.” The professor was displeased, judging by his facial expression, but mercifully said nothing. A couple of students seconded me. I found the poem breathtakingly beautiful, its rhythm hypnotic. I kept re-reading it, omitting the didactic second stanza. I was intoxicated with the pines, the fog, the woodthrush.
And no, I didn’t care if the “real” theme was a religious conversion, or if the new life was in fact the expected afterlife, Pericles being old and dying. I cared about lyricism.
Lyricism: nature imagery and skillful repetition, which creates music. Lyricism seduces the reader to keep on reading and re-reading.
And that’s what every poet wants: to be read and read and read.
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(As for the close father-daughter relationship, in Shakespeare, in literature in general, and in life, that’s a huge separate issue. Is it good for a daughter to be a spouse surrogate?
When it comes to sons and mothers, we are more confident in being wary of excessive attachment, especially if the mother is frustrated in her marriage. Fathers and daughters? The daughter rather than wife at the father’s side as he campaigns for office? We try to stay out of it.
There is the kind of healthy parental love that seeks to give, to nurture the child. Then there is the kind that seeks mainly to take — to receive adoration in the absence of more appropriate love. Let’s end it there, and enjoy Eliot’s poem for its nature imagery.)

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A SENSE OF THE SACRED
“When I am asked if I'm religious I always reply, ‘Yes, I'm a devout musician.’ Music puts me in touch with something beyond the intellect, something otherworldly, something sacred.” ~ Sting, Berklee College of Music commencement address in Boston, May 15, 1994
Music does that to me too. I love music, including verbal music. In poetry, it’s verbal music that makes me feel enchantment more than imagery and other elements of the art.
Like many non-theists, I have a strong sense of the sacred which surfaces when I am in contact with beauty in any form. Should anyone ask if I am religious, following Sting I’d reply, “Yes, I'm a devout poet and a lover of beauty.”
(Note that this is very much like Joseph Campbell’s “Follow your bliss.” I'm glad that we are developing new perspectives on how to live, what to worship. As Ginette Paris observed, “It’s still early after the death of god,” and varieties of positive secular life philosophy need time to develop. Eventually the statement that “atheists don’t believe in anything” will be recognized as ridiculous.)

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To be in love is not the same as loving. You can be in love with a woman and still hate her. ~ Fyodor Dostoyevski
So true. One of the wisest things he said, it's little known. What this quotation hints at is sheer torment (which Dostoyevski experienced in his first marriage). There is such a difference between being in love with the wrong person and loving the right person.
When you are in love with the wrong person, the wrongness keeps on growing, along with the sense of enslavement — and hatred begins.
Everyone needs to be educated about the predictable stages of love. Dopamine-based infatuation always wears off — the brain can sustain only so much excitement and insanity, however glorious it may feel at first. The good news is that oxytocin-based attachment love can continue deepening.
Photo: Lee Jeffries
GALILEO SHOWS THAT DANTE’S INFERNO WOULD COLLAPSE
(nor could Satan be simply a giant man)
~ “In 1588, when Galileo was a 24-year-old unknown, a medical school dropout, he was invited to deliver a couple of lectures on Dante’s “Divine Comedy.” Many in Galileo’s audience would have been shocked, even dismayed, to see this young upstart take the stage and start poking holes in what they believed about the poet’s meticulously constructed fantasy world.
Ever since its 1314 publication, scholars had toiled to map the physical features of Dante’s Inferno — the blasted valleys and caverns, the roiling rivers of fire. What Galileo said, put simply, is that many commonly accepted dimensions did not stand up to mathematical scrutiny. Using complex geometrical analysis, he attacked a leading scholar’s version of the Inferno’s structure, pointing out that his description of the infernal architecture — such as the massive cylinders descending to the center of the Earth — would, in real life, collapse under their own weight. Later, Galileo realized the leading rival theory was wrong, too, and that even the greatest scholars of the time simply didn’t understand how real-world structures worked.
Debating the mechanics of the Inferno might sound like intellectual horseplay, the 16th-century equivalent of MIT cafeteria debates about the viability of “Star Trek” teleporters. But there was more to the lectures than this. The insights Galileo gleaned from analyzing Dante’s measurements in fact anticipated a vital principle of structural engineering. By asserting that you cannot create a giant Lucifer by super-sizing the model of a man — that increasing an object’s magnitude would create a whole new set of structural and material imperatives — Galileo was paving the way for the construction of everything from ocean liners to skyscrapers to Macy’s parade floats.
Galileo, a notorious contrarian, would likely have appreciated Peterson’s theory, which goes against everything we think we know about this stony rationalist. It also contradicts the notion — dearly held by practitioners of the humanities and sciences alike — that fact is fact, art is art, and never the twain shall meet, at least not in any meaningful way. As Peterson likes to point out, in Galileo’s time no such division existed. “Galileo’s thought,” he says, “[drew] directly on the kind of imagination that we associate with the arts.”
In fact, Peterson adds, if Galileo hadn’t given himself over to the “triumph of artifice and imagination” of the poetry he loved, he would never have achieved the insights that shaped the Scientific Revolution, and by extension the modern world. Art, he says, “was the only place this kind of invention could come from.”
As for the fact that he is making claims that run contrary to conventional wisdom, this doesn’t bother Peterson at all. “Galileo himself was always quick to imagine contrary-to-fact situations,” he says. “I think that part of his interest in Copernicanism — the idea that the Earth moves — is that it seemed so contrary to fact, so paradoxical.”
In this regard, at least as Peterson sees it, Galileo has more in common with today’s quantum theorists, whose work requires mad leaps of logic, than he does with the generations of by-the-numbers physicists he inspired. The world’s first true scientist, the professor tells us, understood that it takes a man of reason to provide the proof, but only a fantasist can truly reimagine the universe.” ~
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XXC8DWkw4hg

Oriana:
So: Galileo examines the physics of Dante’s hell and discovers scaling laws. You can’t triple a horse in size and have a viable animal. The shape needs to change to sustain the weight. The more I think about Galileo, the more terrific he appears — making his telescope, writing in code to Kepler. You did science at the risk to your life.
“THE EMPIRE NEVER ENDED” ( but was continued by the Catholic church ~ P. K. Dick)
~ “To my thinking Roman Catholicism is not even a religion, but simply the continuation of the Western Roman Empire, and everything in it is subordinated to that idea, faith to begin with. The Pope seized the earth, an earthly throne, and grasped the sword; everything has gone on in the same way since, only they have added to the sword lying, fraud, deceit, fanaticism, superstition, villainy. They have trifled with the most holy, truthful, sincere, fervent feelings of the people; they have bartered it all, all for money, for base earthly power. And isn't that the teaching of Antichrist?” ~ Fyodor Dostoyevski, The Idiot

an abandoned church in Chicago (St. Boniface)
DONALD TRUMP AND THE PROSPERITY GOSPEL PREACHERS
Think about all those prosperity gospel preachers. The ones who brag about their wealth, fly in private planes, and tell their followers how they can eventually achieve the same lifestyle (even though that’s never going to happen) if they just believe. It’s a world in which Pastor Creflo Dollar can beg for a $65 million plane and Pastor Steven Furtick downplays his $1.7 million mansion by saying “it’s not that great of a house.”
When you think about it, that’s the same world Donald Trump inhabits.
Blogger Zack Hunt: Donald Trump is the perfect prosperity gospel candidate.
Like the prosperity gospel itself, he’s the walking antithesis of the actual gospel. Greedy, self-serving, manipulative, and hostile towards critics, I can’t think of a presidential candidate more fitting for these pastors to idolize.
He’s the prosperity gospel incarnate: crude, materialistic, and antithetical in every way to the life and teaching of Jesus.
And, like those other preachers, he’s far more interested in spreading his own brand than trying to help the poor. It’s frustrating how many people don’t realize this game is taking place right in front of their eyes because they’re too distracted by all the money.
It’s no wonder the same sort of people who believe praying to God (or giving “seed money” to “pastors”) will improve their socioeconomic status are the ones who think a Trump presidency will solve many of their problems. They’re not thinking critically about the matter because they’re blinded by the braggadocio.
http://www.patheos.com/blogs/friendlyatheist/2015/10/01/what-donald-trump-has-in-common-with-prosperity-gospel-preachers/#disqus_thread

Oriana:
Perhaps this is the answer to the riddle of why the Religious Right has embraced Trump, a blatant sinner who is the antithesis of the teachings of Jesus. Those teachings have been abandoned already decades ago in favor of the “prosperity gospel.”
Each cultural group remakes Jesus in their own image. In the words of The New Yorker: “To the Puritans who settled the Colonies, Jesus was a marginal figure, and the Old Testament more important than the New. In the four centuries since, however, he has slipped the bonds of Christianity altogether to become icon and brand, as American as Mickey Mouse or the Coca-Cola bottle.”
Thus, the “American Jesus” is not the figure described in the New Testament. He stockpiles guns, waves the Confederate flag, encourages paying no taxes (so much for “rendering unto Caesar”), and despises the poor as “losers” (but this can of course change if they send “seed money” to the right church).
And of course, since the end of the world is imminent, and, in the words of Paul, “we who are still alive and are left will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air,” this Jesus cares nothing for the earth. The earth is irrelevant: let’s burn coal and cut down all the forests.
But in terms of the more traditional Jesus who drives the merchants and money-changers from the temple, says it’s easier for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter heaven, who champions poor and the meek, and treats women as full human beings — I’ve lost track: has anyone called Trump the Anti-Christ yet? His ego comes close to Yahweh's. Imagine if Yahweh could tweet . . .
This brings us to a larger issue:
“IT WAS CHRIST WHO KILLED JEHOVAH” ~ Will Durant
~ “Periodically in history man’s conception of God changes as man’s knowledge and moral sense improve, and these epochal transvaluations can upset not only philosophers but also whole nations and eras. We live in such an age, when the revelations of science, of history, and of the ethics of Christ have made it impossible for developed minds to believe in that “grim beard of a god” who frightened our forebears into decency. In this sense it was Christ who killed Jehovah.” ~ Will Durant, “Fallen Leaves”
(Freud would probably appreciate the conclusion that Christ killed Yahweh. A son’s task is to kill his father, in a symbolic way.)
~ “Will Durant, raised a Catholic, did not believe in a personal god, but admired the ethical teachings of Christ. Ariel Durant, raised in a Jewish family, wrote this in In A Dual Autobiography by Ariel and Will Durant (1977): “We never deserted our faith for any other, but we lost most of it as we rubbed against a harsh and increasingly secular world . . . my Uncle Maurice helped to free me from such nonsense, and awoke in me a desire to read books and enter the world of thought.” ~
Oriana:
Who wouldn’t want a GOOD deity to exist? Or at least a fairly decent one? One who wouldn’t let children die of brain cancer or a once-loving mother no longer recognize her children because of dementia? But if the conquest of terrible diseases happens, it will be due strictly to progress in medicine, not to an improvement in god’s morality, or a change in his “mysterious ways.” For all the severe brainwashing I was subjected to, I never failed to see that god (Yahweh, that is — he was the one with real power) was evil.
What a relief, later, to see that the god of my childhood was not evil. Instead, he was fictional, a projection of human vengefulness. When I fully and completely understood it at the emotional level, I felt a huge wave of joy. “The monster doesn’t exist! He really doesn’t exist!” I kept shouting in my head. Whenever I think of it, I still experience an echo of the euphoria.
By the way, I abhor Zeus and Wotan too — pretty much all the archaic gods are monstrous tyrant deities, the bully gods. Even goddesses were not that sweet — Isis might be an exception, a nurturer above all.
But then, the way the “American Jesus” has been twisted to stand for the opposite of the gospel teachings, we get this statement about Trump from two of his “Trumpettes”:
“We finally have this god that’s gonna come down and help us all.”
http://nbcnews.to/2dxQErb

Audience member Robin Roy (C) reacts as U.S. Republican presidential candidate Donald Trump greets her at a campaign rally
AGAINST THE IMPERIAL EAGLE
~ “Benjamin Franklin had urged that the new States should take the turkey as their bird, representative of a domestic peace and prosperity, and he protested strongly that the eagle stood for the ambitions of rapacious and murderous empires. Imperial Rome had subjugated a world to the law and order of its Caesars under that winged predator; and wherever the arrogance of world dominion goes the eagle appears on its standards. Franklin, who thought abruptly and realistically, knew the powers of the insignia, and he argued for the turkey cock in his domestic pride. We almost snicker. In our sense of how inappropriate the turkey is, we can see how much our own sense of dignity has departed from that of men like Franklin and how much it demands the Mithraic imperium of the Bird of War.” ~
~ Robert Duncan
Wild turkeys, photo by Daniel Patterson
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I got to see them myself! A wild turkey at Zion National Park, near a shuttle stop
DO WE NEED “ARCH SUPPORT”?
The notion that sport shoes and inserts should keep the human arch stiffly supported is a decades-old assumption that could use some rethinking, according to a British gait analyst who has closely studied more than 25,000 footsteps of healthy people.
In fact, the varying patterns of foot pressure seen among the human volunteers looked a lot like the patterns seen in the footfalls of two bonobo chimps and an orangutan that the scientists had take the same test. As agile tree-climbers, these nonhuman great apes might have been expected to have much more flexible feet, Crompton says.
Among the humans, the outer arch seemed to flatten in about 7 percent of all the footsteps, which conventional assumptions would have suggested was bad — unstable. And most of the volunteers, Crompton says, had at least one step from each foot that, if judged under conventional evaluations in a foot clinic, would have flagged them as possible candidates for treatment for fallen arches.
There was nothing wrong with any of these feet, the scientist emphasizes. It's our definition of normal that needs to change.
http://www.npr.org/sections/health-shots/2013/08/20/213882836/golden-arches-human-feet-more-flexible-than-we-thought

ending on beauty
AUTUMN JUSTICE
Gray-haired lovers walk under everlasting trees
down a path littered with the the crunchy
fingers of the gods and Caesars.
~ Zbigniew Herbert (tr Oriana Ivy)